The Search..

hi..

hmmm it's sunday again.. meaning it's time for me to book in again.. haiz.. wat a boring life.. ppl have told me army is fun and allows u to get to know more friends.. but.. i dun seems to feel it.. well i shall leave my army life to another story ba..

Today is Mi Xue's 21st Birthday.. But she celebrated it last nite at THE ONE KTV.. hmmm well everyone in my batch have seems to turn 21 as the yr nearing to an end.. hmmm her birthday was one of the 'unquin' one i have been to.. having able to celebrate one's birthday at a KTV VIP room was one of the most happening thing to do... and having to sing to everyone on her birthday is also one of her wish i guess... hmmmm yest really felt like been to a personal idol concert ( ge ren yan chang hui) but also with some other guest invitation.. haha.. hmmm could see tt she really enjoyed herself very much.. wah heng ah last nite they sa bo me again.. sa bo me and Mi Xue together.. lucky i siam away.. haha...

Yesterday was also Shirely's 21st Birthday.. hmmm the 2 sisters.. one in sg one in Aust... wat a way to celebrate their 21st birthday together.. hmmm still remember.. during our yr 2.. the 4 gals celebrated their birthday together at a chalet.. hmmm was really happening tt time.. but those were the days..any way i here also wish the 2 of them HAPPY 21st BirTHdAy ba.. Wish u all the BEST>>...

haiz.. today's is sunday again.. meaing it's time for me to book in liao.. hmmm went to my grand ma's house early in the morning.. slept for 4 hrs only.. i reached home at 6am and woke up at 10.00.. after tt went to chinatown with my parents.. i din like to go chinatown... there's one BIG reason..

back to HER again..

thinking abt her...

HER dad works as an ice-cream man.. selling ice-cream at chinatown... she used to go her dad's stall help out often.. i followed her too... but after breaking up for so long.. i still miss her.. TODAY.. i went chinatown.. at 1st i knew her dad working there.. was really hoping to see her.. but on the other hand i din wan to.. i didn't want to see another guy who's standing beside her.. i feel so miserable.. Dunnoe wheather is was lucky or unlucky for me.. SHE wasn't there when i passby her dad's stall.. ever since we did not keep in touch, whenever i go out.. either at my area's hawak center(becoz her bf also lives in GHIM MOH), or whenever i go to town..i would open my eyes wide.. in hope of meeting her some where out there.. but i got a confuse feelings in my heart... i wan to meet her.. i wan to see how is she.. i wan to noe how she has changed into.. i just wan to see her.. and hug her... BUT... i know i can't do tt.. it's no longer wat it's used to be.. How i wish it could be like wat TV Drama serials always happens.. searching everywhere for a long period of time.. and ended up meeting her in somewhere... liek a couple of long dist love relationship meeting each other for the 1st time.. well yes.. pls condem me.. i am dreaming.. but... i just do wish something of tt sort happens..

Yest nite i also met carrie.. i think i scare her away.. the very 1st thing i ask her was who the bastard is.. i guess she's the only one whom i knew noes the bastard.. i hereby saes sorry to her.. but coming back to the question.. DOES KNOW WHO THE BASTARD IS? really tt impt?? what would u do if u know who the F is him? KILL him?? if u kill him would she comes back to u?? the ans is diffinately NO!!.. Killing is a crime too... BUT>... being kept in the dark for so long.. and not knowing who actually is the person makes me such a useless guy... at least i could know what kinda man is he.. Furthermore the person is frm my sec sch... tt makes it even worst... haiz.. the more i think the more i am sad... GIN last nite told me to let go... not only her.. alot ppl also... but... maybe it takes time...

haiz.. hate the feeling of booking in... as if i am cut away frm the outside world for another week.. but wat to do.. A MAN GOT TO DO WAT A MAN HAVE TO...