The Past Events

hi..

just an update abt wat i have done..

25th june:

I had a Birthday Celebration party at my house.. I did not wanted it to be at my house initially.. bcoz it's too troublesome for the after party clearing up mess.. i wanted to held it at other places.. but the rental and cost is too high.. therefore decided to held at my place.. hmmm.. on the day itself.. i had really enjoyed myself.. seeing all my friends frm Hennry Park Pri Sch.. Jurong Insitute 1st 3 mth course.. Poly classmates.. poly EEEC batch 01/02 ppl.. to attend my birthday.. was really glad to see many ppl tt day.. BUT.. there's still someone missing.. hmmm.. after tt we went for a late nite movie (initial D)

last week sat:

i went Lim Chu Kang cementary with Er Jun, Mi Xue and Gin Rong.. wow.. it is a nice stretch of road being able to speed up to any speeds tt ur car can allow.. i waited for them at a bus stop outside NTU.. as usual er jun and gin rong is late after sending some'GAL' back home.. me and Mi Xue waited for them b4 moving on.. we wind down the window.. and speed at 130km/h.. (it's considered slow liao but as i did not want to over rev my dad's toyota altis, i did not went faster)hmmm was kinda feeling like Initial D siaz..

last mon:

haiz back in Camp.. nothing much.. did alot of SK again as usual.. yes I did cover medic again.. was grambling to them how come so fast it's my turn again.. even the sgt was puzzled why me again.. i could only tell them.. bo bian wat to do they choose me to become cover medic.. and sianz.. got a standby on sat.. another weekend burnt..

yesterday:

haiz the standby lasted the whole day.. booked-in in the morning.. and did some preparations for the seniors platoon b4 they moved off and stayed in coy line whole day.. we waited and waited.. finially at abt 2230 we were activated.. it's a training activation.. to prepare us in real situation.. but it also means those ppl onsite standby is comeing back.. Yeah book out lo.. but had to clear up and pack.. we book out at 2345 only.. lucky Jacky send me back home.. once reached home rushed to change and sneak into my parents room to get teh car keys and went music underground.. celebrations for Gao Ling and Er Jun birthday.. was really sorry tt din attend their birthday party.. so in order to 'bu chang' went to meet them.. anyway i also long time din go relax liao.. so might as well...

At music underground.. was kinda regretted.. 1st: there isn't any pretty gals. 2nd: those gals really CMI (cannot make it) 3rd: they are all so old.. can see tt they are abt 20+ 30+.. as usual G went fishing again.. this time he really got a bad taste.. everybody was so fedup with him.. wasted our time only.. haiz.. wat to do ppl leaving on mon to brunei for training.. must get some action b4 leaving.. back home only at 0600hrs

My thoughts

hi..

Before i began.. this entry is jsut some things i wished to express myself.. having being alone for 5mths liao.. and staying confined in camp (not any camp- it's an Army camp) could really force a person to think wild..

Toking abt my love..

just a brief intro abt her.. we know each other in secondary sch.. but we din talk much.. i still could remember i could even count the no. of times we talk during sch days.. less then 20? maybe... I only borrowed her HW to copy tt's all.. During those days we din know each other well.. and after we graduated.. we did not contact each other.. it was only by chance.. somebody created a website called Friendster... we kept in touch through Friendster and chatted and ex-changed no. That was in my poly days and she still in JC.. we chatted occasionally.. and went out a few times.. i could still remember the 1st date i went out with her.. We went JP to watch Silver Hawk.. the movie.. the ticket is still inside my wallet.. After a that.. we started chatting on the phone quite often.. talking abt anything under the sun..

I remember there was once last yr there was a blackout in many parts of Singapore.. i was at home tt nite.. i was worried for her and called her a few times but due to the black out.. the tele network was down and couldn't get through her.. after i think 1 or 2 hrs.. the electricity resume and i called her and was releive to hear frm her..

we shared alot of common interest.. during tt time both of us is still learning our driving liscense.. we would often talk abt our instructor of the day.. how idoit the instructor is.. always distracting and scolding us when we do wrongly.. finially she passed on her 3rd time (i think).. same as me haha..

The nite before i enlist army.. i remembered.. i msged her.. ask her out.. went to pick her up and went for a midnite show.. after enlisted into army.. during my BMT.. i rememeber how whenever i am free.. i would msg her just asking her how's work and telling her some funny things happened in bunk..

The love we had:

i could still remember.. during my BMT.. we went out on every book out tt i had.. watching movies.. could still remember there's one day.. i bought her to a place (mt faber).. we talked.. and chatted.. and there's where i poped the question of asking her to be my GF.. she rejected me.. telling me she still has feelings for her ex... and wasn't ready for a relationship.. i was okie with her.. i mean.. it's okie i can wait for her.. tt's when she broke down and cried.. saying she broke my heart.. i told her i could wait for her.. i was kinda disappointed.. and after i send her back.. she told me to drive carefully.. not to let those feelings affect my driving.. i told her.. ' i am a good driver.. dun worry'... saw her crying on her lift lobby looking down frm the raillings while i am in the car.. she cried becoz she felt she has hurt my feelings.. but i was willing to wait for her..

after a week.. we were together.. i love her very much.. i tried my best to bring her to many places which she hasn't been b4.. i could still remember the 1st time i bought her to esplanade.. walking along the river side.. it;s so sweet.. on Xmas... brought her to keith's place.. Keith invited us over to his house for celebrations.. bought her a handbag as present.. I tried to bring happiness to her everytime we go out...

i could still remember when i was in BMC (basic medic course) in nee soon camp, we had IV lesson.. where we were trained to poke needles into each other.. tt is to give a casuality a life line in the case of emergency.. i told her the nite how fun but also painful the exprience was... could hear frm the other side of the line tt her heart also felt like being poked by a needle... and after tt every book out she would see some needles scare on my hands.. and when ever she ask pain anot? i would sure say... 'pain lah of course... needles leh.. but it's ok lah.. the pain last short while only.. and we were used to it liao..'

On the V-day..

V-day was on the mon.. I had all planned well.. i ordered flowers frm jean.. she's selling some flowers and cakes and stuff.. so decided to take frm her and send it to her house..wanting to give her a big surprise.. But we celebrated it on the sun.. we went to woodlands.. had a simple dinner..and saw there's a funfair ongoing.. tot the idea of bringing her to some funfair is not bad an idea... she told me she loves taking bumber cars ride.. so we went to buy cupons.. and played... i drove the 1st time.. with her sitting beside.. and we go bang into other ppl.. we play twice.. with her driving the 2nd time.. and she enjoys it very much.. hmmmm... (did i bring back some of her childhood memories) haha... on MON evening.. our course commander was very kind.. she give us nitez off.. tt was a great way to give her a surprise... went north pt to buy a small teddy bear and took a cab to ginza where she went to her friend's place.. meet her.. and went back to her place.. on the way... i told her' hmmm are u thinking y other gals are having a bouquet flowers and u only a small teddy bear.. told her the small teddy bear resembles me..' she felt so loved... I could feel it.. and back at her home.. she was surprise to receive flowers frm her sis as she steps in her house.. her sis told her.. 'hmmm dunnoe who has order flowers for u..' she turn around and look at me... i told her.. 'yah dunnoe who order flowers + a small chocolate cake + a box of candies for u hor?.. hmmm dunnoe which guy hor? so loving rite?" could see frm her eyes the kind of happiness she felt.. it's the 1st time she receiveing flowers frm a guy.. tt nite.. i felt like a cinderalla.. but a male version... becoz of the fact tt it was a nite out.. and i still need to rush back to camp.. we din managed to eat the cake and i left hurriedly.. back in camp.. i called her.. she told me she felt like living in a world of fairy tales.. a male cinderalla sending her flowers and cake and candies on V-day.. and was taking photos of all the gifts i gave her..

LOVE..

LOVE:

Yesterday marks the day 8 mths ago, I 1st started a relationship with my 1st gf.. she is just a simple gal, innocent, cute, pretty in my eyes.. we shared a lot of common interest.. and todae it also marks the day 4 mths ago we broke up.. it was a painful one.. i am still thinking abt her everyday.. I still love her very much.. Friends around me has always been telling me to let go but i just couldn't.. hmmmm.. i got to carry on..

about me

history :

i am a guy. 21 yrs old this yr.. Living in a small 5 room flat in Ghim Moh for the past 21 yrs of my life. I been through pri sch, sec sch, poly and now serving NS.. in a medical vocation. as a combat medic.

My 1st post..

hmm.. hi everyone.. this is my 1st ever blog.. i am new to this.. will try to figure out how it works.. give me some time.. hope it can releive some of my feelings i had..