a lost of hp
Hi
Sorry it’s been quite a long while ever since I last updated my blog.. hmm many things have happened during the period I went missing.. I couldn’t write down my feelings I have been feeling so far… well I got a lot to write todae.. hmmm so bear with me..
My com was down for almost 3 weeks.. $100 was just like tt being flown away for a lousy graphics card.. but now there’s another problem, my computer has got no sound.. the graphics card is fixed but now the sound got prob again.. haiz.. well I guess the computer just doesn’t like me… but I felt something.. during the period of my computer down I couldn’t find any one to help me.. even er jun or gin rong also dun wish to help.. haiz.. well.. dun say er jun.. mi xue have been asking him to help her fix her com too.. but he rejected her so many times.. saying so far away.. yet on fri nite he could go all the way to her house nearby for fishing.. for almost 2 hrs..hmmm well.. I dunnoe I got nothing to say..
Well after xiao mao’s birthday at Z10.. we went back a few times the Z10 and paul lanner at millennium walk tt side.. find tt the atmosphere and environment is very nice.. really like tt place alot.. got big screen for soccer fanzy.. nice waitress.. cool music.. nice sofas too.. haha.. opps am I promoting too much? haha
Well.. it’s abt her again.. not tt I wanted to talk abt her tt much.. but I really wanted to let off those deep feelings I have always been thinking abt.. and I guess I could only talk here.. I wanted to find someone whom I could chat and talk abt… but couldn’t find anyone.. In camp those camp mates are just friends whom u can only work with.. other then tt it would just mean some cursing and swearing over some trivial day to day living culture.. as for those whom we used to called ourselves 1 batch..they are all busy with work, studies and NS.. no one would ever wan to hear me out.. (well or rather I din wan to bother them at all.. they are all so stress up with work stress and stuff.. all they care is to chill out, relax and not to think abt anything.. why must I bother them with all my problems? Or well maybe becoz it’s me.. haha..)
Hmmm these days.. beautiful and sweet memories of her have always been falling back on me and replaying in my head… when I sleep at nite, I dream abt her.. and on fri afternoon.. I receive a msg
“sorry.. may I know who is tis? Cuz I lost my hp n all contacts…” from DearDear hp.. (I still maintains her name as dear dear.. sorry if it sounds so mushy.. but not tt I lazy to change back her name.. but I just want to keep it as a memory.. she will always be my dear dear)..
the moment I received and saw the msg.. I was shock.. how could she, we have been together.. Though not long but.. she just forgets all abt me.. I was thinking in my heart.. how should I react? Say “ I am ming feng ur EX BF?” trying to stress out the point tt I am still missing her? I was at a lost.. I have been thinking abt her all this long.. and it’s just a msg.. and I am stunned.. I dunnoe wat I should.. well I just replied with a “hi lost hp again? Same old habit of misplacing hp.. well I guess u needed know who am i? and need not find out too.. I am just a insignificant guy living in a small part of sg who still has keeps his little princess deep in his heart not letting go..” I was at a lost.. not wanting to let her know completely who am I.. giving her a mystery feeling but well I guess it’s easy to find out though.. and I was thinking.. since she has lost my no. and already has a bf le..y dun we just lost contact form this on..? but thinking back.. NONO I can’t do tt.. I have already lost her.. I dun wanna lose her as a friend again.. this incident reminds me of the past.. there was once, when we were not yet together.. me in poly.. she once did lost her hp.. I keep trying to contact her but couldn’t.. every time I call her no. it doesn’t get through.. I also got her home no. but I din dare to call her house.. not wanting to create a commotion.. and tt lost of phone incident caused us to lose contact for 6 mths I think.. the feeling of getting back in touch with her felt so great.. it felt so much of starting all anew again.. we would talk abt how we have been doing.. and stuff. .work.. family and friends..
but for now.. it’s totally a different feeling.. the feeling of wanting her to know how much I have been missing her and how much I wanted to talk to her.. but yet the feeling of rejections and ignorance again.. it isn’t easy.. I did not want her to ignore me.. I also do not want to lose her again… ARRRGGGHHhh… I am so frustrated.. this morning she msged me again.. it was just a simple good-day msg.. I was also surprise she would still msg me.. maybe it’s the sign saying ‘we are still friends” but in the morning msg.. she used “ DEAR frenz.. how’s ur day enjoy ur day” y must she use DEAR? Does she still treat me as DEAR?? Well I do still keeps her name as dear.. but…well... to be continued…
well I guess I shall continue next week… haiz wat an uncertain week ahead.. with enchik not around and sgt surin in command, makes me wonder wat could we be doing deployment? exctrication? hmmm pray hards..
Sorry it’s been quite a long while ever since I last updated my blog.. hmm many things have happened during the period I went missing.. I couldn’t write down my feelings I have been feeling so far… well I got a lot to write todae.. hmmm so bear with me..
My com was down for almost 3 weeks.. $100 was just like tt being flown away for a lousy graphics card.. but now there’s another problem, my computer has got no sound.. the graphics card is fixed but now the sound got prob again.. haiz.. well I guess the computer just doesn’t like me… but I felt something.. during the period of my computer down I couldn’t find any one to help me.. even er jun or gin rong also dun wish to help.. haiz.. well.. dun say er jun.. mi xue have been asking him to help her fix her com too.. but he rejected her so many times.. saying so far away.. yet on fri nite he could go all the way to her house nearby for fishing.. for almost 2 hrs..hmmm well.. I dunnoe I got nothing to say..
Well after xiao mao’s birthday at Z10.. we went back a few times the Z10 and paul lanner at millennium walk tt side.. find tt the atmosphere and environment is very nice.. really like tt place alot.. got big screen for soccer fanzy.. nice waitress.. cool music.. nice sofas too.. haha.. opps am I promoting too much? haha
Well.. it’s abt her again.. not tt I wanted to talk abt her tt much.. but I really wanted to let off those deep feelings I have always been thinking abt.. and I guess I could only talk here.. I wanted to find someone whom I could chat and talk abt… but couldn’t find anyone.. In camp those camp mates are just friends whom u can only work with.. other then tt it would just mean some cursing and swearing over some trivial day to day living culture.. as for those whom we used to called ourselves 1 batch..they are all busy with work, studies and NS.. no one would ever wan to hear me out.. (well or rather I din wan to bother them at all.. they are all so stress up with work stress and stuff.. all they care is to chill out, relax and not to think abt anything.. why must I bother them with all my problems? Or well maybe becoz it’s me.. haha..)
Hmmm these days.. beautiful and sweet memories of her have always been falling back on me and replaying in my head… when I sleep at nite, I dream abt her.. and on fri afternoon.. I receive a msg
“sorry.. may I know who is tis? Cuz I lost my hp n all contacts…” from DearDear hp.. (I still maintains her name as dear dear.. sorry if it sounds so mushy.. but not tt I lazy to change back her name.. but I just want to keep it as a memory.. she will always be my dear dear)..
the moment I received and saw the msg.. I was shock.. how could she, we have been together.. Though not long but.. she just forgets all abt me.. I was thinking in my heart.. how should I react? Say “ I am ming feng ur EX BF?” trying to stress out the point tt I am still missing her? I was at a lost.. I have been thinking abt her all this long.. and it’s just a msg.. and I am stunned.. I dunnoe wat I should.. well I just replied with a “hi lost hp again? Same old habit of misplacing hp.. well I guess u needed know who am i? and need not find out too.. I am just a insignificant guy living in a small part of sg who still has keeps his little princess deep in his heart not letting go..” I was at a lost.. not wanting to let her know completely who am I.. giving her a mystery feeling but well I guess it’s easy to find out though.. and I was thinking.. since she has lost my no. and already has a bf le..y dun we just lost contact form this on..? but thinking back.. NONO I can’t do tt.. I have already lost her.. I dun wanna lose her as a friend again.. this incident reminds me of the past.. there was once, when we were not yet together.. me in poly.. she once did lost her hp.. I keep trying to contact her but couldn’t.. every time I call her no. it doesn’t get through.. I also got her home no. but I din dare to call her house.. not wanting to create a commotion.. and tt lost of phone incident caused us to lose contact for 6 mths I think.. the feeling of getting back in touch with her felt so great.. it felt so much of starting all anew again.. we would talk abt how we have been doing.. and stuff. .work.. family and friends..
but for now.. it’s totally a different feeling.. the feeling of wanting her to know how much I have been missing her and how much I wanted to talk to her.. but yet the feeling of rejections and ignorance again.. it isn’t easy.. I did not want her to ignore me.. I also do not want to lose her again… ARRRGGGHHhh… I am so frustrated.. this morning she msged me again.. it was just a simple good-day msg.. I was also surprise she would still msg me.. maybe it’s the sign saying ‘we are still friends” but in the morning msg.. she used “ DEAR frenz.. how’s ur day enjoy ur day” y must she use DEAR? Does she still treat me as DEAR?? Well I do still keeps her name as dear.. but…well... to be continued…
well I guess I shall continue next week… haiz wat an uncertain week ahead.. with enchik not around and sgt surin in command, makes me wonder wat could we be doing deployment? exctrication? hmmm pray hards..
posted by Racer84 at 9/25/2005 06:16:00 PM
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